it is no easy thing to find a friend along the way, i mean the friend whose smile extends, beyond a single day... who has a word of praise, for everything you do & when misfortune turns the tide, is still a friend to you. the kind of friend whose attitude is never dark or cold. but who is always loyal & who has a heart of gold.
-James J. Metcalfe


life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you'll burst. but the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life going.
-Nathalie Bernot

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

i'm getting freaked out. cause i'm reading information for university applications. i wonder how veron felt when she applied for college! ):

anyway i think this few days is going really bad. i'm always getting unhappy over the slighest thing. i guess i really do think too much. and i was feeling so terrible today, i've decided to just shut up, so that i won't lose my temper at anyone.

yesterday, when i thought i wasn't going to survive through in school, i thought of what nat said to me. and it was really heartwarming, cause she was so sweet. though i might be kind of lonely in meridian, i'll survive. (:

here's what nat said to me the other day (:
please dont take my sunshine away. says:
i'd love to have u arnd la
please dont take my sunshine away. says:
really
please dont take my sunshine away. says:
i mean it
please dont take my sunshine away. says:
but pls stay till the end?

she was persuading me to go tj. (: and though she knew that the possibility of me staying till A levels is like zero, she still tried.
although she seems to be damn busy lately and haven't really talked to me for ages,
nat's the sweetest sweetheart ever. (:

alright. it's chinese project with jasmine law now.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

8:27 AM

Saturday, January 26, 2008

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM! (:

i'm so glad i didn't skip roadrace today. if not, i would miss everything that happened after that too.

anyway roadrace was boring. and they made us run/jog/walk 3.1km. and i nearly got a heatstroke okay. anyway after the thing ended, i went for lunch with ally and jasmine! we ended up at macs. initially, we wanted to have ben and jerry's after macs, but we were too full in the end. ): and after that, to kill time, i walked jasmine to the bus stop. (:

met tara at 12.30! see, i'm so early. we went to the foodcourt to sleep while waiting for angeline, and the un-contactable theresa. clarissa couldn't join us cause she had church. stupid woman. i normally wouldn't survive without claaar at primary school clique outings, but it was fun today. (:

alright. i should get back to the main point. we bought a cake and went to kim's house to surprise her! and we had to wait for theresa who only woke up at one when we were supposed to meet at one. HAHA. so anyway, we cracked so many jokes along the way. and kim wasn't really surprised. cause she suspected something and we made so much noise outside her house.

omg. i really love all the clique outings that we had. and there are more coming up! like dionis' and angeline's birthdays! it was damn fun recalling the past today! and not forgetting the amount of bitching we did today too! the primary school clique is LOVE.

i think i should do my tutorials now. and to decide on my jae. ):

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

5:28 AM

Thursday, January 24, 2008

i'm happy with my results. i really am. thank goodness i expected for the worst. if not i wouldn't be so high and happy yesterday.

so anyway yesterday was dramatic. the moment we got back to tk, i started screaming like mad. basically i was just screaming and hugging people all at the same time. oh and that includes clinging on my lili too. (: gosh. i really really miss having lili around. ):

okay. so we were all seated in the hall, listening to the principals' talk. as they went on, releasing statistics, i got really really scared. scared to the extent that i was going to break down. so when people are finally going up to the teachers to collect the results, i started crying. especially since i saw darling cried. and then dorisa came by, and i started crying even more. oh yes, worse still, the moment i see chin yixiu's face, it didn't really helped to stop my tears.

then when my turn came, i didn't dare to look at the teachers. i just busied myself with signing on the class list. and then mrs hoy gave me that reassuring smile and showed me my results. it came as a shock, and after it sunk in, i started screaming/crying to jana and yixiu (i pulled them with me when it was my turn).

i cried even more when the juniors came and started screaming into my ears. but they were tears of joy i guess. (: omg. i can't stand edna's scream. :/ anyway we all did well, so YAY.

yay. so it was an eventful day, though it was pretty scary. and we took lots of mep photos. the mep class were the last to leave the school. (:

i think i'm leaving meridian. ): i know that my mommy wouldn't let me stay there. but i've gotten so attached to the school and people. i'll miss having alicia, jasmine and huixin around. cause they'll always laugh at me for being silly. and get freaked out when i'm emo. (:
(or maybe i wouldn't get into temasek. HOHO.) oh yes. miss sim encouraged me to go tj and take music. :/

ah well. i've to go and look for univeristy stuff soon. i think that's pretty scary. (maybe i would be rejected by all.) actually i should stop cursing myself. :/

vicki the SEXY sunshine love you!

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

9:00 PM

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

it's just two more days and i think the world is going to stop spinning. yes, it's the horrid O levels results. and i think i feel really stupid, because i'm stressing myself when no one is giving me any pressure. and it's to the extent of having silly thoughts, if you know what i mean. ):

anyway i was being emo in school today. and it scared everyone off. i warned them the other day that it's scary when i'm emo, cause they were complaining that i was too noisy! now they know. and it's so funny how alicia kept asking huixin if i was okay. and huixin kept replying 'i don't know'. but yes, i wasn't okay. i nearly broke down like twice. once when jasmine came and tried to cheer me up. the second when i was reading nat's message. but oh well. by the time half the day was gone, i was happy again. jasmine chased my emo-ness away. (:

i have a freaking econs test tomorrow. i haven't started studying and i'm still here. i want to drop econs right now. ):

and and and i shall go send an email to my hong kong friend! i feel so bad, cause i've been neglecting her for so long! and we've kind of gotten distant again. must be the bloody Os. i used to tell her quite a lot of stuff! but anyway let me tell you what a bad friend i am. i didn't wish her merry christmas or happy new year, when she did! omg.

nat just made me sad again. she doesn't know how to blast people off to planets. like how i used to. she's so lousy! ):

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you. (:

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

4:37 AM

Friday, January 18, 2008

things have been pretty eventful, i guess.

i shall do a recap. (HAHA) i like being an idiot lately. oh well.

last friday, i went back to tkgs with nat. i reached tkgs half an hour earlier, so i went to videoworld to stone. (screaming at nat at the same time too) we had lunch there! i miss the food. and the surroundings. so yes. we saw teachers and then we sat in for string. i didn't really talked to the juniors, since, well the new conductor was there. and after tkgs, nat accompanied me to parkway to prepare veron's farewell gift. and she suffered quite a bit. (:

then saturday! we went to the airport to send veron off. we nearly missed her cause we took so long to complete her farewell gift. at least we managed to pass her the gift. i was perfectly fine at the airport, maybe cause we were rushing here and there. but i broke down at night. ):
and during practical this week, i thought of veron! cause she was my lab partner for 2 years. and i was always bullying her to help me do things. (OPPS)

alright. went for cca this week, and it was torturous. ):
nevermind. i'm going to endure it. yay.

and there was kelly's birthday on wednesday. i'm lazy to elaborate. (:

i'm going back to tkgs for cca promotion day tomorrow! exciting! and there's a lot of catching up to do with lynnette! and we can go scare the sec ones off. force them to join string! (HOHOHO)

i'm being a pest in school. ): i'm so annoying and i can't stand it myself.

everyone hates me. ):

my dear jasmine law is supposed to be online to discuss the chinese project with me. but she's nowhere to be seen. ):

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

9:16 AM

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

omg. i want to die.

let me tell you about my current life. in the mornings, i rush out of the house to take the combination of bus-mrt-bus just to get to school. then, we spend the time in school either in the lecture halls (where i'm always half asleep, blur, confused and what not) or in the library (watching my class study/revising). finally, when the school day ends, i go through the trouble of getting home and end up either in front of the computer, on the bed, or revising my lecture notes.

seriously, i think i've got a very interesting life. and the above sounds like i'm sitting for my A levels or something, but the truth is that i'm only into my second week in jc, the first week being orientation and all.

and then, i've got something new to do today. which is to get myself freaked out over the selection of cca. i think i'm going to join a cca which is not quite expected.

i'm so busy for the whole of this week! i've got trials tomorrow. i'm meeting nat at tkgs on friday, after which we're going out to get my stuff. and i'll be going to the airport on saturday. i was supposed to be going back to tkgs tomorrow too! but i've got trials. ): oh my. i've got such a busy social life. (HAHAHA)

anyway i've been so terrible today. my emotions were very unstable. i talked to nat yesterday and i got sad. so i went to bed feeling sad and depressed. and then, as usual, i woke up feeling sad and depressed too. so i didn't really respond to people in the early morning. after which, there was this period where i got super high and started giggling/screaming/slurring my words. and like a rollercoaster, i went back to my 'great depression' (as quoted from yixiu). and my leaving of singapore story got leaked out to the whole class. not forgetting my life story too. OH WELL. i do like attention BUT not THAT much of attention.

oh yes. i found back my bimbo self today.
(i'm a bimbo! [clap, clap, clapclap]
i'm a bimbo! [clap, clap, clapclap]
i'm a B!
i'm a I!
i'm a ... oh nevermind!
i'm a bimbo! [clap, clap, clapclap])
omg. I MISS YOU LYNNETTE LEE. i still remembered how high we got over this cheer during chinese class. and how we kept chanting it, including sharmaine, who is er not very bimbo. (:

let me tell the truth. i'm kind of enjoying myself in jc.

but i miss you and you and you!

LOVE, vickitse. (everyone loves my surname and i wonder why)

[edit] i miss my sister. ): she's away on camp and she's not going to be back for 3 days! seriously, what's the point of a sec 2 camp? stupid school. i desperately need to bitch but she's not here! and i need her opinions. )): SISTER. come back soon. pon your camp lah.

imagine how i'll survive without my ideal bitching companion (though i bitch a lot about her too) in canada. strange huh, that i actually miss her, cause basically all we do is fight. (or rather cat fight)

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

5:11 AM

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